how do you spell narcissistic?

... self portraits have been intriquing me lately. I even have found several blogs, and flickr sites that honor this. The fact that people even have blogs about themselves is a bit narcissistic. A lot of people dance around the edge of self love, but I feel false modesty will not allow them to admit it, I might be one of those. I don't believe in low self esteem, but I do believe in a lack of self confidence. I believe we all love ourselves. We may not like the way we look, or parts of our selves; too fat, frizzy hair, bad skin, etc. We may hate certain ways that we are or are not. But down to the bone, if we are all open and painfully honest; we all love ourselves! Even ... more than we ought, scriptures say. We are told to love others as we love ourselves (the golden rule). We are told there is not one man who does not love himself ... and that we are to esteem others HIGHER than ourselves. We are told that in the last days people will be LOVERS OF SELF .... saleh

I will finish this thought later. I am tired now.